Best Laid Plans

Mr Man saw his psychiatrist, Dr Hillary, recently. We discussed the worsening of the voices, and also an interesting symptom which he has not admitted to previously – his auditory hallucinations actually include hearing music. Obviously this is not a symptom that is bothersome to him, and the music that he composes is a recreation of what he hears. This takes us back to the subject of psychosis and creativity, and raises the important question of how or how much of these symptoms need to be controlled.

For the most part Mr Man has been coping very well with the level of symptoms he currently experiences. It’s probably not what most people would call a “normal” life, as there are still many areas that cause him problems, but compared to just a couple of years ago his quality of life has improved dramatically. He regularly plays table tennis and has been able to interact with other players and form new friendships, albeit not close ones. He also composes music, writes computer programs, and designs websites.

Obviously increasing medication would greatly impact on his ability to carry out these activities due to the side effects of drowsiness and lack of concentration. As Mr Man said himself “I don’t want the music to stop”, and yet some of his symptoms are still distressing to him. For this reason it was decided that now would be a good time to refer Mr Man to a psychologist who specialises in psychosis, so that he can help Mr Man to learn how to “talk back” to the voices. I feel this is an important step, and now would be the ideal time; Mr Man has good insight into his illness, and has been progressing steadily.

However, I fear these plans are about to be put on hold for a while – Saturday evening I discovered that Mr Man has not been taking his medication.

I had noticed over the last few days that Mr Man’s anxiety had been increasing. By Saturday afternoon he didn’t really know what to do with himself. He was fidgety and felt clammy. He’d sit on the door step and then come in again 10 seconds later. He was feeling hot then cold. He also had this very strange look in his eyes that I had not seen before. His eyes were wide with a “crazed” look – I’m sure to others it would have seemed quite scary. I put it down to the anxiety. Thankfully we still had some Diazepam left from when he was prescribed it previously. It settled him for a while, but later that evening he became very negative about life and everything in it.

As I gave him a reassuring cuddle I asked him: “How come you’ve been feeling so poorly just lately? Have you missed some of your tablets?” He avoided eye contact but nodded to confirm that he had.

At a time like this, establishing and maintaining open and honest communication is essential. A person suffering from psychosis will already be feeling confused and anxious because of the voices, so no matter how scary or shocking, I always try to be supportive and never react emotionally to anything that Mr Man tells me, as this would only raise his anxiety further and possibly make him feel that he can’t confide in me. I say this, not to make myself sound amazing, but because it is an important factor when dealing with someone who is suffering from psychosis, and yet one that is easily neglected.

“Ok, which ones have you missed” I asked him calmly, still cuddling him. Mr Man started to panic:
“I’m not going back into hospital”
“No, that’s ok; I don’t want you to go into hospital either, but I need to know which tablets you have missed”

He told me it was his Clozaril, also known as Clozapine. I needed to know how many doses he had missed. He kept repeating that he wasn’t going into hospital, and now I realise why he was panicking so much – he had missed too many doses to be able to just go back on to his usual dose. *Please see footnote.

"Missing Clozapine" by Philippa King

We talked for a while and I reassured him that I wouldn’t let anyone take him back into hospital. We made a deal. I promised to keep him out of hospital, but in return he has to be completely honest with me about how he is feeling – I can’t keep him safe unless I know how he is feeling, and if I can’t keep him safe then I can’t keep him out of hospital. We have to work together. He promised, and we shook on it. I know I will have to remind him a few times because his memory will worsen as the voices become more intrusive, but so far I feel confident that we can overcome this together.

In saying that, I had a sleepless night on Saturday night wondering if I really will be able to keep my promise. I couldn’t have done this before, but his symptoms are not new to me anymore. In fact, I think I would cope less if he ended up in hospital again. I’m actually more worried about the side effects of starting his Clozaril again than the worsening of his symptoms. I really don’t think that hospital would help him at the moment, as none of his usual distractions would be available to him. He can’t concentrate on much at the moment, but we are watching an enormous amount of Star Trek and Babylon 5 to help keep his mind occupied!

I called the out of hours doctors surgery on Saturday evening, and they put me in touch with the on-call Psychiatrist. I was keen to start Mr Man back on the Clozaril as soon as possible, but there was no way of being able to get hold of any low dose tablets. He told me I would have to wait until Monday morning and contact Mr Mans usual Psychiatrist. That means another two nights without medication. In the mean time he said I could increase the Abilify that Mr Man takes in the morning, and give him Diazepam for his increased anxiety.

So now we wait until Monday morning. But what makes a person stop taking their medication in the first place? This will be the topic of a post in the near future.



*The problem with Clozaril is that there are some very serious side effects, and so guidelines are very strict. It cannot be prescribed by a GP and high street pharmacies do not stock it. Previously it was licensed solely for the treatment of “treatment resistant Schizophrenia”, although I have read recently that it can also be used for psychosis associated with Parkinson’s Disease.

Patients on Clozaril have to be monitored very closely as it can lower a person’s white blood cell count dramatically, leaving them defenceless against life threatening infections. Due to this and other serious side effects a person is usually admitted into hospital when starting treatment, not to mention the fact that they will probably already be very ill with the symptoms of psychosis. When a person first starts treatment of Clozaril their WBC is tested once a week for six months, and the person is only given one weeks supply of medication at a time. After six months the patients WBC will be tested every two weeks for a further six months, and then every month for the duration that they take the drug.

A starting dose of 12.5mg is gradually increased to a therapeutic dose of between 350 and 600mg. At one time Mr Man was taking 800mg a day, but after a certain level the therapeutic benefits fail to increase whilst the side effects continue to worsen. The correct therapeutic dose will be different for everyone, and can be affected by other medications that are taken. A blood test can be taken to establish the correct dose for each patient. Currently Mr Man has been taking 300mg daily.

The starting dose is exceptionally low as there are other complications associated with taking Clozaril. Suddenly starting on a larger dose can result in coma or cardiac arrest. For this and other reasons, once a person has missed two consecutive doses of Clozaril they have to be reintroduced to the drug with the starting dose of 12.5mg.